Found this while rummaging thru my computer yesterday… It was written July 5 of last year… Im not a poet or songwriter.. Its just a nice way to get shit out i cant really say.. :/

Whats it gonna take?

Who’s it gonna be?

Cause I just can’t sit around

and let this happen.

It’s him or fucking me.

Not to be rude,

but Im far from amused.

Ive putting everything I have into this,

and what hurts the most..

Is that everything is really nothing.

To try harder is to leave you alone,

and to leave you alone is what makes you happy.

So baby, I’ll keep trying,

but is it all for nothing?

You claim I have your heart,

but I don’t feel like I have you.

Just wish I could go back to the start,

and let all the happy times ensue.

I don’t want you to drift away,

I don’t want to feel this way.

We had something so special,

magic.

Now we live in hell,

and it’s making me sick.

So baby, please come home.

Let me make you smile, treat you right.

Once you feel my love again there will be no one, 

else.

We can take this world on by storm,

with no end in sight.

We can fly high again,

I just know we can.

Yeah, we can fly high again,

so baby please be mine in the end.

I love you.

Reblogged from thenlaurasays521

I wish you’d just see that when you are complaining and expressing all of your hurt to somebody, the LAST thing they are going to do is validate it. Most people don’t  have the conversational skills or courage to be able to look a crying woman in the eye and tell her that all these tears will be worth it in the end. To tell her she shouldn’t cry because this isn’t meant to hurt you. When you go to a person, especially a guy, sobbing over something another guy has done, most only know how to handle that in one way- Agree with how YOU feel. Who really wants to tell a crying girl her feelings are off-track or incorrect? Who?

I just wish you’d see that we both deserve better. Not just you. And that was the purpose of our break from one another. To step back from the clingy chaos that our relationship became, find ourselves, really remember why and how we fell in love in the first place. To find and remember who we were before becoming so inter-twined with one another. Stand on our own two feet so that when we do reunite we can handle the distance and extended vacations. I just wish you’d understand I’ve been through so much with you that I just need a break from it all to get back to who I was. I know you’ve been through hell with me as well. I’ve never denied that or my faults. Sometimes, a couple just needs a break from one another to heal all the wounds and develop thicker skin, more confidence, their true identity again. I never had any intention of cutting you from my life or ever, and I mean EVER, forgetting about you.

thenlaurasays521:

I am miserable. My heart is breaking without him here. I didn’t fall asleep till 4am last night. We had a rough day and managed to patch things over until we mentioned this summer… Everyone tells me I deserve better. That a guy would make you yours if he wanted too or lord you. All I want is for someone to stick up for dev, I want someone to tell me that all these tears are worth something in the end :(

Fiiind yourself a back doooorrr….